I find myself thinking about my Mom a lot lately. Feeling guilty about not spending enough time with her when she was alive and other things. The intense feeling of sadness just creeps up unexpectedly. It's usually at the most random times. I just want to break down into sobs but I don't. I just try to think of something else or busy myself. I don't know what to do about it. People say time will make it better but I just don't know that is true. I feel like maybe I haven't grieved appropriately? If there is an appropriate way? Maybe I should get a book about loss. I just don't know who to talk to about it and to be honest I am a strangely private person, emotionally. I don't like to express my feelings to people even when the feelings are positive. So I don't think I even could talk to someone about it.